Personal Growth

Day 11: The Fear That Stops Many From Shining

Sunrise from my window

Think about it. If you want to be radiant, why aren’t you?

And if you aren’t radiant, is it because you really don’t want to be?

Seriously, why would anyone…

NOT WANT to shine?

NOT WANT to be dazzling, beautiful, sparkly?

NOT WANT to be confident, happy, and joy-filled?

I’ve spent a bit of time searching my own heart and have come up with a possible answer to this quandary:


When Jesus is your Lord and you take on His light as your light, all that you are and all that you’ve done is exposed. When His light shines on you and illuminates everything… your sin, the ugly parts, those places in your heart that you don’t want anyone to see, it’s not a pretty picture.

Many, many, many times, I have resisted getting close to Jesus, resisted the joyful hope of having His face shine on me, resisted being in the light of His presence, just because…

I didn’t want to see the junk in my life.

I didn’t want to acknowledge that I am a mess without Him.

I didn’t want to admit to the inner ugliness that I had gotten into the habit of.

And worse than that, I didn’t really want to give it up.

Here’s the thing: to let the light shine IN us we need to let the light shine ON us.

Everyone who does evil hates the light and will not come into the light for fear that his deeds will be exposed. John 3:20, NIV

Wait until the Lord comes. He will bring to light what is hidden in darkness and will expose the motives of the heart. 1 Corinthians 4:5 , NIV

You have set our iniquities before you, our secret sins in the light of your presence. Psalm 90:8, NIV

He reveals deep and hidden things; he knows what lies in darknessand light dwells with him. Daniel 2:22, NIV

Today, determine if you really want to shine, if you really want to be dazzling, confident, joyful, close to Jesus.

If you do, step close to Him and open your eyes to see who you really are without Him. Let the loving light of His presence reveal those areas that are ugly and bitter and distrusting and insecure. Feel the warmth of His love and acceptance and grace, no matter what His light exposes. Agree with Him that it is an ugly problem. Ask Him to forgive you, change you, and shine in you.

Don’t allow this fear to stop you from shining. Exposure can be the exciting spark to a whole new way of living!

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amy ruth, writer