Ut-oh, you’re desperate
Desperate doesn’t look pretty. It’s wild in the eyes with fingernails clawing for something just beyond your reach.
Desperate doesn’t feel pretty either. It’s like a punch in the gut that leaves you hallow, empty, and in pain.
Desperation is real and can happen to the strongest of hearts. But, it doesn’t have to be a bad thing.
What if you could harness your urgent desperation into pursuing a fuller life and a deeper faith in Jesus?
A desperate faith
This year, I have been desperate for Jesus. Walking through the grief in losing my dad, some days I’m simply trying to catch my breath.
The reality of loss has brought me to my knees. I can only cling to the hope for heaven and the reality of Jesus’ salvation. I’m desperate. It’s a good thing.
But, I’m not always desperate for Him. Often, I think I can manage my faith. I can check boxes on my “Jesus-loving list” and call it a day. Weeks may pass without having any intimate conversation with Jesus or asking Him for help. At times, I just don’t think I need Him.
But, a managed faith isn’t faith at all.
How to have a desperate faith
Recognize the true depth of how much you need Jesus.
- Be face-up to the reality of your need. When you see the truth of who you are and accept the grace of Jesus despite it, pride and self-sufficiency have no room. It’s a good thing.
Chase after Jesus- first thing.
- Yes, first thing literally means first thing. When I start each day sacrificing 30 minutes of sleep to meet with Jesus or when I cut my Netflix binge watching the night before by 30 minutes so I can get up the next morning, it’s a good thing.
But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. Matthew 6:33
Chase after Jesus- continually.
- Not only first thing but continually. In the car, interacting with the kids, washing dishes, eating lunch with friends, folding laundry… stay in the space of knowing your desperate situation without Jesus. Push yourself out of the way and lean into Jesus. It’s a good thing.
Seek the Lord and His strength; Seek His face continually. Psalm 105:4
Chase after Jesus- with tenacity.
- If I knew there were Cartier diamond jewlery in my backyard, I would tear it up! I would uproot trees to find them. You would see a desperate woman! Is that how you chase after Jesus? It would be a good thing.
For if you cry for discernment,
Lift your voice for understanding;
If you seek her as silver
And search for her as for hidden treasures;
Then you will discern the fear of the Lord
And discover the knowledge of God. Proverbs 2:3-5
Instead of obsessively clawing for things (food, affirmation, relationship, weight loss…), what if you began desperately chasing after Jesus…
with such tenacity and intention?
with such determination and aggressiveness?
with the knowledge that you need Jesus more than anything?
Desperation can drive you to life-changing moments with Jesus. It’s a good thing.
Keep on practicing a desperate faith. Some days, you will hit the mark. Other days, you will not. It’s all a part of the faith journey.
Just keep on going. There is grace in the truth of your inability.
When You said, “Seek My face,” my heart said to You, “Your face, O Lord, I shall seek.” Psalm 27:8
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